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The name is Jessica-FUCKING-Lynn
AKA [[JFL]] Or Jessica Internet
Music and photography are life, nothing else
I'm down with Hardcore, Metalcore, Indie, Techno etc
Nature is awesome, but only if left unharmed


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=) [Monday
July 10th, 2006 | 12:05am]
[ mood | tired ]

So I am sitting in Calgary finally living here and going about with my life and I love it.
I've been busy everyday, spent some tiem with the family tonight, job hunting, shows etc.
it's pretty much what I really wanted.
I'm so happy and I can't believe it's going so well =)


sdgdfgh [Monday
July 3rd, 2006 | 1:29pm]
[ mood | excited ]

He hates me now...I can tell


July 3rd, 2006 | 9:00am]
[ mood | awake ]

So today is it, this is my last day and I am more than excited.
I'm kind of getting over the nervousness I'm just scared that mom will hate me for the rest of my life.
This really is not about friends or about living with my dad over mom.
It's about what I want in my life.
And it's this school, it's the art collages there too, it's so much better there for me I think, more opertunitiy than I have here.

Best friends


Confused [Sunday
July 2nd, 2006 | 10:47pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Everytime we get into this conversation, things get so weird, I get all teary and I miss you a lot more than I normally do.
I'm sorry it had to be this way, but it's not my fault and I won't ever take blame for it.
I just wish the night before it all ended you woudl have said somrthing or you woudl have at least come back to me.
But you have to understand I'm with someone else now, and he makes me happy. I've been happy and it's something good in my life.
I'm sorry I can't be the one for you, you have to understand it's not somethign I planned on.
Maybe one day.
But not now.


Tyesday is it [Sunday
July 2nd, 2006 | 12:45pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

So on Tuesday I am off to Calgary for the rest of my life, and I am horribley nervous. I have so much planned for myself, and plans with people and I'm not too sure how well it's going to work. I'm worried about getting back there and not being able to stick with my Goals. 
I know I can stick with them, but I dunno'
I'm excited too I guess, I get to see Jackie and Tim. I'm house sitting Tims appartment for him, I'm going to be able to See Tyler, Alex, Craig, Catlyn, Andy, Jayme, Taylor Mini and loads of other people. Going to have to get myself a little crew started haha not really.
anyways, I guess this is really a goodbye type thing to all the people in nova scotia that I love.
I hope that you guys really know how much I love you. I will miss you and none of you better forget about me because I know I won't forget about you(L) 
Love you always.


aihriusg <3 [Tuesday
May 16th, 2006 | 8:01am]
[ mood | enthralled ]

I have this funny feeling in my tummy. err not funny
well I have butterflies.
I think he's a sweetheart, but I'm getting attached WAY WAY WAY too fast, as if this was something that will end up to being what I want it to be. But I scare people and I'm not sure if it's going to happen.
oh jealousy I hate you more than anything. well not more than anything but a lot. I think I might go
a little insane for the next 48days.
I have to go to the hospital today and I wish someone..TT ....could be here with me just to comfort me.
He seems so nice, and it makes me smile. 
he's going to cook me breakfast and I'm going to cook him supper
he even said he'd get me roses the first day we met.
that's super cute times about 50 because I love  them
anyways I gotta go.


thanks, that was awesome. [Tuesday
May 9th, 2006 | 10:54am]
[ mood | angry ]

So today Chris left me.
After all that was said and talked about, and all that had happened in order for me to be with him. Hurting Logan, and having to hurt from logan, he left me.
It was the worst thing to wake up to, and to start my day off to.
I don't understand if everything he was was true, why he wouldn't want someone to helphim with it, rather than dump them because they can't handle a girlfriend.
Like I ma much trouble, I'm all across the country and i don't go out with a shitload of guys and flirt and blah blah blah.
Words can't explain what I feel right now for some reason I just wanted to cry all morning but I had to go to school.
awesome, school just helps too.
why didn't you say anything last night.


..It should stay in the past [Saturday
May 6th, 2006 | 6:01pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

There's always a part of me that stays attached to someone once it ends.
And I hate how that part always pops up again when I start talking to the person
and I just happen to start missing them, even if I am with probably the greatest person ever.
It bugs me, because I don't know if it's me actually missing the person
or missing what me and that particular person did while we were together.
And I don't know how I can tell, because I never talk to them and if I did I am scared
my feelings for them will grow and take over the oens I have for someone else.
I could never let that happen. not to him.
Not ever.

run jessica Run!
Katie and jessica like to have fun.


Don't want to be here. [Friday
May 5th, 2006 | 8:29am]
[ mood | cranky ]

Living here is just getting a little to hard, and I don't think understands that it's not her but pushing me and getting mad at me isn't making me want to stay here either.
There's only two more months till I am free, 60 days to be exact. I don't want to leave my mom, I love her, but I want my life to go the way I had planned before kyle fucked everything up, one too many times.
If there is anywhere I could be right now, It would be away from this house, I'm sick of crying and crying and crying and yelling.
I'm unhealthy, and this isn't making things better.
A place to live anywhere but here would be awesome.
So much better.


You throw your life away [Thursday
May 4th, 2006 | 8:51pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

You're slowly becoming what I used to be, a stupid inmature little prick. You'd freak at me for the stupid things I'd do or want to do and now you're getting into them yourself. I don't care if nobdy else gives a crap with what you do in your life, I care and that should matter because it USED to matter to me what you thought, but I guess everything you said was a bunch of bullshit.
You're not making my life any easier right now, you know what's going on and you think out of all people telling me what you did today was a good idea? I don't think so you know my stance on those things and you know I hate talking to people who are envolved with them.
Way to go, you're doing a great job, when you don't get into school and your wasteing all your money on things which aren't doing you anygood, let me be the first to say I TOLD YOU SO!!!!!!.
Have fun screwing up your life, I won't follow in your footsteps, but it seems you're following in my old footsteps.
I won't be around to see how much trouble you'll be in soon.


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